So tonight as I was getting ready for bed I had a realization. Something that has been bothering me since I’ve lost things in my life one by one. Before the accident I knew, I was focused driven and passionate about my career choice.
I am sure that what I am going through is normal. Anyone that has gone through loss goes through this to some degree. What am I going to do now.. Life is not like it was, now what… What are my options.. I have written about this very subject more than I would have liked to. I feel like I have thought about it infinitely more than I would like to have spent time on.
I am transitioning. I am getting clarity. I am creating a new vision for myself about my purpose and what I will do to impact the lives of others.
Often I have spent my time looking out my windows, or at my walls or at the closet in my room that has no doors. (BTW I love my closet with no doors.) I found myself being inspired by the things around me. Paintings by some very important people in our lives grace our walls, and the birds, well, I’ve shared quite a lot about them here as well.
These are some of the things that over the past 6 years have helped keep my mind in a positive place.
Art, Nature, Life these things bring joy to me. If they bring joy to me they will bring joy to others as well.
What am I going to be when I grow up???
Well this much I know. I am going to be an Artist.
What kind? I am not sure. Right now I am going to be a mixed medium artist. Focusing on photography, watercolor painting, makeup artist, positive thinking artist, conceptual artist, writing artist….
I do however know that I absolutely want no part of being a con artist. That would take up way to much energy! =D
I know I should have more focus than this, but I don’t. I am going to just see where this road leads me. I may end up being a starving artist, I do know that art is something I am good at doing. It is a God given gift and I just need to develop it I can still do lots of things in this category, maybe not all at once maybe not all at the same time, maybe not every day, but I can do something. I can keep my mind and hopefully my fingers busy creating.
1. Do something that gives me passion.. ( to concur the world. )
2. Do something so well that it gives joy, meaning, and impact to others in a positive and meaningful way.
3. Do something that can pay for itself.
4. Do something that others want to support and be a part of helping grow.
5. ( My former self speaking) Expanding my career choice into and actual sustaining career that I could support myself and Jason on in a not so starving artist kind of way!
I love the feeling of concurring the world. Just thought I’d throw that in there. It is a glorious feeling that I so enjoy, and have experienced many times over in my life. The feeling of doing my best at something, and it is making an impact that can be actually palpable. I love that feeling.
I want to create that with my art. Now if only I could find some generous benefactors who need some art!! =)!
So join me as I travel my path into the great unknown. I am going to be creating things. I hope I am able to create more than a mess!