Tuesday, September 21, 2010

AsSeSSMeNT..

One thing that I know is myself.  I’ve spent years working on things I am good at to improve them.  Years were spent on the things I wasn’t so good at to get them to a satisfactory level which was the theory of the time.  That was before I had transitioned to a different theory, focusing on what you are good at make it great and then find others who are great at what you are not and partner.  This will allow you both to be successful faster!  

One problem, finding someone who fits where you have holes. 

I’ve been reassessing my skills and what I can work at developing.  I knew before what I was capable of.  Now, well it varies. 

I guess I am going to have to give it some more time.  In the mean time I am focusing on the arts.  Developing skills I once had when I was younger.  The field of art or craft like photography, knitting, painting  or a medium such as these are more forgiving to individual interpretation and time constraints.  I don’t know if I can turn it in to a career.  But at the vary least it can keep my mind focused on something positive. 

Do you know yourself?  Are you aware of the things that you are the best at?  The things that fill you with passion that let light in your life?  It may be something rather simple, or something else complex.  If you don’t know what you are good at ask others.  Develop that.  You might not be able to make a career out of it but you can use it to make your life better. 

When you own your own business especially in the network marketing field, you are constantly fighting personal battles.  Some are harder to win than others.  Just picking up the phone for me was difficult.  After the accident it got worse, but in different ways.  Before the accident it was only hard to pick up the phone to get started making my calls.  After the accident, I was in so much pain and on so much medication it came through the phone lines to those I was calling.  I could hear it in their voices.  I started loosing clients like crazy.  I soon learned I had to stop calling people. 

Orders that had been easy for me to deliver would sit for weeks because I was unable to get out and about.  I lost more clients.  I was told that I would be getting better.  I just had to do my therapy and ride it out so I could get back in the game.  That didn’t happen.  I tried reaching out to those in a position to help.  Unsuccessfully.  I am not going to go in to that.  It is over and done with.  I am not the only one who lost a lot.  Others lost an incredible amount too by not supporting my efforts and struggle even more who were in lesser positions who were trying their best lost.  Our businesses while independent were interlinked.  I miss the way things used to be that is for sure.

What I wish would have been told to me by the doctors was the reality of.. you are not going to get better, so you need to reassess what you are good at and figure out a way to make it work. 

You can’t go back you can only go forward. 

I am using my new glasses every day.  It is hard to see with out them now, getting harder and harder.  Easier to see with them although things are all out of sorts with both.  I’ve got to check in with the Dr soon so we’ll see.  My PG will start again son too, now with the glasses the therapist should be able to help me with some physical issues and hopefully get some things to stick. 

I am making my lists again, what I want in my life, what I want in our lives, what I am good at, what I need help with…. you get the picture. 

I don’t know what the future holds, I only know that I have a choice about whether or not to be happy where I am at to day.  I am happy today.  I choose to be.  I choose to be grateful for my amazing husband, for a roof over my head, healthy food to eat, a service dog, a scooter, birds, camera, paints and papers, yarn, warm weather, sunshine, football on regular  13 inch television ( we don’t have the fancy kind ), accessible buildings, helpful fun friends…  the list goes on! 

I am now figuring out a way for me to make my life work.  I am still not sure what it will include beyond Jason, but that’s enough for me.

I am blessed!

Pink Doberman

2 comments:

Kelly @ The Startup Wife said...

This post was so beautiful--I loved reading it. Those are such huge questions about knowing yourself, and I totally related and felt I could apply them even though we're in different situations. I so admire your attitude of being blessed (I got some horrible news today and it was a challenge to remind myself that I am, indeed, so blessed) and how you choose to be grateful.

Following you now! :)

Pink Doberman said...

Kelly,
Thanks so much for sharing! I am so glad that something I have written has spoken to what you are going through.

I LOVE your blog as well! I am grateful that you chose to comment and I look forward to reading your posts!

I am sorry about the difficult news that you have gotten. I will be thinking and praying for you. I hope that whatever happened will turn into something that will positively propel you.

Hugs Blessings and Prayers,
Tonja