Tuesday, March 30, 2010


So I have been grumpy again...  don't take a pain pill for grumpy..  But.. many times when I am grumpy that is a very good sign I am also in pain.. EXCEPT  I CAN'T TELL...  I am so frustrated.  By the time I figure it out I am hurting.. well.. I wish I would have already taken some medication..  I am so frustrated.  Wish Luka could figure this out too. 

I was told a long time ago now, that taking the pain pills for real pain, is a way to escape addiction.  Great.. So what do you do..

Half the time coming off of the medication I would think I may be grumpy or something.. Who knows, I am certainly not the expert at this stuff.  My new medication helps.  It sure does.  My stomach is not even getting upset.  Which is a huge deal. 

The other benefit is it is also not rotting out my teeth like the Fentanyl Lolly Pops!  I have had to have Crowns and Root Canals... GRRRRrrrr from those dumb things..  But when that is all your options give you you do what you have to.. I still have more to go dental work is expensive, even if you have insurance. 

So frustrating, damned if you do and damned if you don't. 

Not feeling happy at this moment..  Well, I am going to have to work harder at that.  I am really trying to type my way into a feeling of peace with all of this.   I have a feeling I am going to have to keep typing for a long time.  

1 comment:

stipeygirl75 said...

"Grumpy" usually precedes pain for me too. My dilemma is wondering if I should take meds. during the grumpy or just wait for the pain - sigh! I'm not sure what is better! I always want to think positively that maybe it'll go away.