I love this blog post by Selena. It talks about becoming a fibromyalgia scientist. Really I think you could apply it to any problem. I like this idea, though for my personality this whole project compares to sticking a needle in my eye.
I do think it is worth it, and would lend me more credibility at the doctors office, as I have recently have been running into some issues with one of my formerly favorite doctors. What a pain. But I can see the validity of completing some steps such as these for myself, and it would be great to get listened to as a real person with valid issues, than a pain ridden crazy person who only God knows what they think of me behind my back.
So I am going to have to get focused and get real and really start this project. UGGGGGG Maybe I would rather stick a needle in my eye!
On another note, I just about ate a whole bag of potato chips.. my stomach is telling me STOP, my mind is telling me to keep eating them.... Oh dear lord please pray for me. I have just been referred to Chip-aholics Anonymous as I have admitted I have a problem. Oh lord I feel sick and twisted!
Who does this to themselves. One minute I was eating lunch and the next the bag is nearly gone. This reminds me of the Oprah show I just watched.. I really think I'd better get a grip!
I have been feeling lately like I want to cry a river, or at least a large puddle. I hurt so bad, I've had migraines nearly every day to some degree. I want this roller coaster to stop! I want off! The medication, take it feel spacy and woozy, which I hate, or don't take it and keep feeling worse but have a clear head until the pain gets so bad that you can't think and really have to take a pile of pills to get rid of it. I am so pissed off.
It is wonderful to look outside my windows and see all of the green though! I do like that! The birds are glorious! I have even seen the cardinal couple recently. I tried to get pictures, but they are not good..
Jason is off traveling with out me on a trip I had planned to go on with him. Which is a complete bummer because I would have loved to have gone. But I've been hurting so bad, that I can't even imagine what going would have felt like. My medication cycle of on again off again feels like I am on a roller coaster.. Please tell this carnival to pack up and leave town. There is no room in this one horse town!
Other than this I am having a good day! I have edited some pictures that Jason took of that wedding. I can't wait to share them.
I am hoping to do some more of ours soon too! Well I am off to take my meds. So maybe later I can do something.