What I thought was improving I am not sure that it is. I am having problems sleeping and the pain has been increasing. The meds have not yet been able to take the edge off for me to fall asleep. So I am writing in hopes that doing what I can to stay busy will help me sleep.
I just finished watching a french movie called Priceless from netflix! I stayed awake and read the subtitles. I thought for sure I'd doze off being I had to read and all. Nope.. pain worse wide awake, more ice more meds the aggravation sets in.
Tomorrow I had hopes of doing things. Sitting up being first on the list. I'd also like another bath, although I never did manage to get my hair brushed out from the last one. I think I just have one big rats nest.
I do have a doctor appointment next week. But it will do nothing for the pain, at least not instantly. I will have to schedule again for that as well if the doctor thinks I am suited for the procedure again.
I really hope he agrees that I can't go on like this. It has been over six months since in my opinion the procedure should have been done. Partial my fault and partially schedule difficulties.
I am trying to keep the fact that I am seemingly nauseated out of my mind. I am going to take a pill for that too I guess since I would not be able to handle getting sick like that with the way I feel physically in my neck and back. Oh God Please make it all stop!
Well that is done. Those pills are NASTY! I avoid them like the plague.. Which is probably what I would feel I had gotten if I hadn't taken it. I'd be praying to the porcelain god of kill me now!
It is a special day for one of our girls tomorrow as well. Her wedding.
Things just don't work out like we'd like to sometimes. I am not needed of course, but giving her a squeeze would sure be a great thing to be able to do. I guess it will have to wait for another day.
It won't be the first special day we have missed because of this and I am sure it won't be the last.
At any rate. Life is like a box of chocolates.... (from the movie Forest Gump)
Well I am going to try this sleeping thing yet again.
I am all freshened up. Fresh Ice Pack, more meds, pillows appropriately arranged, Luka settled..
Other wise I guess I will just be messaging my friends on the other side of the globe all night via Facebook.
By the way the movie was a very good one. You should watch it. It was a complete chick flick! Thanks Netflix!